I went to church this morning with the girls. As I was sitting in church behind a nice little family I started to feel sad, envious, and jealous. I was wishing my life was like theirs and (yet I knew nothing about them!). They look 'so happy and so perfect' I thought. Tears started welling up in my eyes quickly. But then I stopped myself. I looked around again and thought about everyone's hearts-instead of their beautiful dresses. I wonder what everyone is feeling or thinking?
Holidays often bring up a lot of emotions. Often people miss loved ones that have recently passed, they might wish they had children, or maybe even wish their lives were better. What I try to remind myself is that I am right where I need to be. God has a plan. Even if my life isn't where I want it to be, there's a reason that I am sitting here, breathing here and enjoying this moment. Today, I will remember that the grass is greenest right where I am sitting. Anyway, the holiday isn't about me, is it? It's about Jesus dieing for us and it is about recreating our lives-a new beginning. It's about living in a Christian way-the way that God wants us to live. Today I thank God for my many blessings and I do my best to be present.